From Despair Love and Passion Flourish

she took a walk through despair 

she refused to succumb to the edge

he called 

again

again

and again...

he wanted her in his life

she wanted to be there

they didn’t want to neglect the richness of togetherness

picnic tables, coffee shops, bleachers and cars became slices of sweetness

his spirit poured truth into hers 

the inevitable kiss of fate enchanted their souls

their hearts nudged them to quicken their pace

she caught a glimpse of demise as her will walked through his open door

it was a journey that killed dreams 

a slow death fast forwarded into a new life

NOW 

the rebirth of love and passion flourishes the desire for more on the canvas of their lives

This is Devotion

I don’t need to bow before the altar of any god or goddess to experience the flow of healing energy. 

I have you and your soft lips, your strong hands pulling me close, your sour and salty and sugary tastes swirling in my mouth, your sweet breath trailing along my neck and shoulders and chest and beyond... 

Devilish nights are ours. 

Erotic sacredness.

We are beyond fate, beyond creation.
I don't expect anyone to understand us. 

What we do is a source of limitless discussion and endless inspiration for our bold hearts.

It’s you and me on this beach, in this car, on this floor, in this bed. 

We are primal animals shimmering with sweat. 

Our eyes sparkle with sexual instinct and everything we do evolves naturally.

I have been waiting all my life to be with you. 

My heart throbs with anguish when I recall the annihilating years of waiting to feel your touch. 

Now we’re here and everything we touch together beautifully blossoms or brilliantly burns. 

The past fragments and nullifies itself with every breath that we receive.

Devotion. 

All I want to feel is your body. 

You are the only one I want to know in this way.

Love is Everything

NOTE TO SELF:

go deep. 

go beyond the mind. 

the mind clings and fixates.  

the heart knows love.

you need to find your own way. and live the truth. 

what do you really want and where are you going with it? 

check in to your negative qualities. and stop...stop it!

start again. 

go for what you want by finding the depth of your pain. 

and find a way to let go. 

cultivate positive habits. 

sit on the spot, close your eyes and just breathe. 

go through the boredom.

the anxiety.

the worry.

the frustration. 

face your pain and suffering. 

get to the root of the problem.  

recieve the love flowing to your heart.

what to do? 

purify your thoughts, diet and connections with people. 

only you know what you need.

find a way to unburden your mind.

eat well.

tune in to the ones who lift you up out of the mundane and inspire you.  

clean things out so that you can breath again. 

find the breath within your heart.

find the purity of life.

love is beyond the personality. 

it is the pure living flame of life. 

it will meet you if you really want to meet it. 

treasure your life. 

don’t waste your life on convenience. 

love is everything. 

Being a Sensualist

Love squishing mud between your toes and walking barefoot with the thrill of possibly (accidentally) squishing a creepy bug. 

Roll down a steep grassy hill and be itchy afterward. Even better - if you get poison ivy, go ahead and scratch it. (If you are highly sensitive to it like I am, you know what I mean!)

Don't just delicately smell a flower, stick your whole face in one. 

When you see someone you have massive affection for, throw your arms around them, pull them to your heart and feel their existence. Then, step back for a moment, look directly into their eyes and tell them what you feel for them. Allow yourself to have lots of internal surges of your feelings about the people you’re affectionate about. 

Write random stuff.  It doesn’t have to make sense to anyone but you.

Food is a sensory experience which permeates your entire body and your...TASTE IT.  Suck a lemon, savor a spoonful of honey, nosh on some stinky cheese, lick melted chocolate off your finger, devour a very hot pepper. 

Tickle and/or get tickled.

. 

Stay up until 2am talking with a good friend until the conversation turns to sleepy delirium and you don't even know what the last thing you said was. Then connect with that person next morning, let them know how much you like talking to them. 

Gaze at the moon, the stars, the sky, the clouds as though there is nothing else to stare at...ever. 

Wake up.

Step outside.

Breathe deeply.

Smile and explode with ecstasy. 

Loving Wind

Like the wind, Love is invisible.

We cannot see it move until it touches something. We don’t know where is originates, where it’s going what it will bring with it and it cannot be controlled. 

However, like the wind, we can see the effects of what love does. It is an energy that can lifts the mundane to a deeper level of joy. 

Like the wind, love makes us sway. It can be turbulent and relentless. Sometimes its strength knocks us over and rips us apart.  

Like the wind, love moves. It’s movement is unseen but felt.  

When we take shelter, we feel the potent stillness that pulses...

10:30pm

Addi: will you rub my back?

me: sure.

Addi: I mean with oils and stuff...downstairs...on the massage table.

me: ok

(back massage, leg massage. flip... 

as i'm massaging her legs and arms and head...)

Addi: i think i know how the Earth was created.

me: really! HOW???

Addi: this meteor was fly thing through space it got tired, so it stopped to rest.  it rested for so long and that tress and flowers and water started to grow on it.

me: why?

Addi: because it was just sitting there! and the sun shined on it for half the day.  and the other half of the day the sun rested and gave its light to the moon and the stars. and then all this stuff grew and it was way too heavy to move.  so it just stayed there.  we're on earth!

me: how did *we* get here?

Addi: that's a whole 'nuther story.

me: true.  

The Divine BLUE!

Everlong:

• A real long time, often used to describe a lengthy waiting period.
• The best goddam song ever, no matter what you say. 

HAHAHAHAHA!!! Thanks, Urban Dictionary

Hello. I've waited here for you. Everlong. 

In the tenderest place of truth & respect timidly lies expansion. Waiting.For.A.Lengthy.Period. 

It's hard to shut out. Really fucking hard when you care so much. 

...promise not to stop when I say when...