Delight

Those who know me well, know that the last two years, on a personal level have been seriously difficult (when I feel the surge of courage I will write about the specifics of this).  

"How do you do it?" some who knows intimately the transitions I have been managing, recently asked.  

"How do you teach the way you do?"

I have had struggles with this because I was worried that those who know me well would think of my words as fraudulent or lacking authenticity.  

But they are not.

With the pain I feel on one level, I crave teachings on happiness and love. I have always had these cravings.  And in satisfying them, I have developed a practice for looking for “the good” in things, in others, in myself.  I have always believed that we are innately happy and good and powerful and beautiful.  In holding this deep belief, I have wanted to express from that place.

It’s not a denial of tears and the deep well of shadows from where they flow.  I see the whole spectrum of life.  And when I look very closely, I see the foundation is pulsating with the highest of life joy and love.  I am focused on the light and open to everything - the brilliance and the darkness of suffering.  I am not shutting it out, I want to know what is happening. 

The questions become greater and greater every day.  Yet, I still feel that it is all part of one pulsating tapestry of energy that ripples with delight for life. It’s a choice.  Sort of like, “Keep your eye on the prize.” I see delight as the reward.

May we all become more awake. May we all become more compassionate and connected to everything.  And may we all delight in this life fully.

xoxox ~Shani